Life is a cabaret

I saw a local production of Cabaret a few days ago. It was probably the hardest show to sit through. Why you ask? Im pretty sure that Annie was my last show. I won that audition with a song from Cabaret, just like I have almost every other audition Ive been to. Every one in that cast Ive worked with before or know in some capacity, and it was hard to be the only one of your friends sitting in the audience when you know in your heart, that perhaps a year ago...you would have been right up there kickin ass and doing kick lines and grabbing crotches with them.

I cant explain it, it just...hurt. Naked, searing, throbbing hurt. Every actor has a calling card show, Cab was mine. This is the first time a local theatre has done it. I used to swear to myself that before my curtain fell I would be up there, doing that show and doing it well.

Thats the other thing this post is about. I suppose I could do another show if I were to be accepted [thats the first hurdle, every one in this town knows whats going on with me and no one wants to take the chance on hurting me] but then i think about it and the real, true theatre nerd in me escapes. What would I offer? What good would I be doing a show? I dont care about my health or the pain or the sleepless nights or the stress because in the end its all worth it. I do care about the integrity of the piece. Just because im 'only' a community theatre actress doesnt mean that doesnt matter anymore. Maybe Im the only one it matters to, but it matters.


Anyway. Revue on the show.

It opens with emcee of course [meine dommen und herren madames and miseurs ladies and gentlemen...'] The company that did this show is owned by two people whom im beggining to suspect started thier own company just so they could have the roles they wanted in awesome shows and beef up thier resumes. But whatever. At the end of the day I cant deny that both of them have talent in thier own rights, when they use it right just like anyone.

So the co owner of the company played the emcee. And while his footwork was occasionally comically bad [most likely not intentional] he has a killer voice for that role. Kudos.

There were a number of technical issues but I went on night 2 of the run so those are forgiven. Hearing my favorite director ever sing tommorrow belongs to me was rad. Sparkly top hat and all. Seeing my favorite person play the mean guy was weird and threw me off hardcore.

Sitting four seats down from a guy who legitimately threw up halfway through the first act? priceless.

To my friends and lovers: Darlings, merde! Its hard right now, but rest assured I will be in that audience until the day I die. I love you all.

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As you can probably tell, I havent been in that many shows lately. My last (and probably final, at least for a while) show was Annie, in Febuary of 2009.


I had a great time, lots of laughs, lots of fun and i got a lot of memories. I also had the coolest fake eyelashes ever.

I will update if/when I do show related things. I promise.

Sadly, during Annie the theatre world lost a great, and I just havent gotten back into step yet


I miss you papi T. Thanks for everything, and for keeping me in line from up there.


auditions:
3 penny
broadway rocks two
falsettos


things i have auditioned for since my last update besides annie
I love you, youre perfect, now change
RENT
Cabaret
Hair
Victoria Idol
Hansel and Gretel
Glee


yep. still going
xox
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